August 30, 2009 @ 4.42am
Life is a stage. We all put on a mask.
However, because sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eye, it makes me wonder if what i really think is how i really feel or how i feel is what i really think of.
It's 4.42 in the morning and i hate to be alone at times like this because i tend to get more emotional and i start thinking of the past.
Presence is more than just being there.
One man all by himself is nothing whereas two people who belong together make a world.
August 27, 2009 @ Friday... Saturday...
Girls always succumb to beauty, they always die for it.
So me lazing around instead of working did my nails with Sandra.
My pretty nails vs Sandra's ugly ones.
Hehe.
Another thing i love because it helps to prevent the face from getting oily,
which means lesser touch ups !
Somebody please sew my mouth up !
The only thing i keep doing is eating, eating & eating,
and the thing is after eating, i always always feel guilty.
Im not hungry, but still i want to eat.
This is becoming a habit.
I foresee myself saying hi to my
fat tummy,
fat arms,
fat thighs & my
double chin.
But still, im gonna brush this aside till i come back from cape town,
den shall i diet !
Cape town is approaching, like next friday 10pm i'll be at the airport with my sisters.
I wonder what this Saturday would be like.
Would it be the norm - powerhouse or like last saturday chilling at acid bar.
I feel so excited as if it's the last saturday for me, yes it is, till i get back from africa.
iGrumble:(i) Zean cut my hair so short. I dont like or guess not used to it yet.
(ii) My skin is so dry ! Need to change moisturiser !
(iii) Get slimming pills after cape town.
(iv) When can we girls have a girls night out ?
I am blogging for the sake of blogging,
this post doesnt make any sense !
August 16, 2009 @ Mum's discharge.
My whole body is aching in addition to the sore throat i had since Friday.
Plus the boozing at powerhouse on Saturday, i woke up feeling very terrible on Sunday.
Feverish but no fever, i ended up sleeping the whole day and woke up only managing to watch the 2nd half of tottenham vs liverpool.
This is why im still awake now, although no i am not always in bed at this hour.
Note: Pictures taken with my panasonic lumix TZ7, this one thing i wanna carry with me wherever i go. :)
Flowers for my dearest mum.
Me: "Where are you ? You sleeping ah ?"
Samantha: "Ya, why ?"
Me: "What time you gg to visit mummy ?"
Samantha: "She's at home already."
Then why no one informed me ? Haha.
Anyway, the good news is mummy has been discharged from Mount Alvernia Hospital.
It has been 6 days, and i've been faithfully visiting her everyday since.
Imagine the shock i received when Samantha called to tell me mum's in hospital, and the agony we had to go through as we anticipated the results from the tests done from the doctor.
Everything's fine now, hope my mum will have a speedy recovery because she's the best & not one i wanna lose.
Random 1: I have this habit of not looking at the camera whenever i think my face is oily & that is not my hand doing the twist.
Random 2: I'm so excited !
Trip to south africa - cape town with Sandra, Sarah and Samantha will be from 5th to 17th September and i cannot wait.
Random 3: I keep having flashbacks like those in love serial shows. I know it's unfair yet i cannot help it. How do i get it off my head ?
Random 4: I dread Mondays & Wednesdays because i hafta go for course at 1930hrs to 2230hrs alone & i hate to be alone.
Random 5: I hate thinking of what to eat the next day because i have no cravings thus eating is doing no justice to my tummy ever since the scale has been tipping to the right.
But still, what should i eat later huh ?
August 01, 2009 @ Pattaya 9th &10th July.
I am home on a saturday night,
which is very unlikely for me because i hate staying home with nothing to do.
Thus, i decided to finally blog about my thailand trip.
We booked the earliest flight to bangkok.
Had breakfast at 5 in the morning, a very heavy one, before we got ourselves ciggies & found ourselves on the airplane.
I was actually not excited as i thought of the 2hour journey we were supposed to take to get to Pattaya.
"Hello Thailand !" Janice & i hand in hand at Bangkok Suvarnabhumi Airport.
We had an old man as our tour guide for the 2days stay in Pattaya,
and on the way there, we visited the tiger zoo.
It is known for its exhibits such as how pigs can get along with tigers in the same enclosure,
tiger shows & crocodile shows.
It's amazing at how the trainers are able to train these animals for the shows.
Pigs can do maths. Crocodiles can keep their jaws open or close as told & tigers can jump through fire rings.
I love the orang utan in red. Look at his tummy !
He was fondling with my fingers, so adorable i want an orang utan in my home.
After the tiger zoo, we had lunch & checked into the hotel.
After which we changed into our swim wear before proceeding to the hotel's swimming pool.
We got ourselves ice cold beer whereby we could drink (and even smoke) in the pool.
The girls were mostly at jacuzzi area (janice says it is to massage the fats away), and we even went for sauna and steambath.
Check out the hotel room, so pretty !
Look at the sea and sky meet from the balcony,
could have been better without the trees blocking the shore.
Cabaret show in the late evening.
But it was a waste as it was included in the Pattaya package but i saw the 7 of us asleep amidst the show.
Part of it was because it was getting boring, singing songs in different languages probably to cater to the tourists from all over, while the other was simply, we are tired !
I hardly slept the night before, not on the plane and not on the journey to Pattaya.
My beefball noodles with lots of chilli flakes and a little sugar.
One word to describe, heavenly ! (or is there such a word ?)
We went to walking street after dinner, and i didnt get myself anything.
I was so disappointed and so was janice.
Day 2
While waiting for the rest to get ready for breakfast and sea sports.
Breakfast came as a surprise as the food was much better then expected and the dining place was rather empty.
After breakfast we boarded a BOAT? to coral island and i broke my slippers while trying to board.
The ride was torturous because it was bumpy and we all had a tummy so full.
I kept my sight far to prevent myself from feeling groggy but we soon came to a pitstop.
I bought my slippers there and so did janice cus i forced her too and she didnt wanna wet her pretty bling bling slippers.
100baht ugly hello kitty slippers, mine in green, janice in purple & chua qing in blue.
I didnt even bother to choose the colour lah, i just took what the auntie gave me and its sitting right in front of my doorstep now.
This ! I dunno what its called but yes it's one whereby u get tied to a parachute and a speedboat will take you off land.
All ready in the safety life vests. We were supposed to run when they said 1, 2, 3, but we didnt even have time to prepare to take off and we are up in the air already.
Yes thats me me me ! :)
After everyone was done we went back on the torturous journey to coral island. We paid to play the banana boat and jetski, but no pictures ! Only the ones whereby they took for us and we had to purchase it if we wanted it for keeps.
There was basically nothing else to play besides that 2 except for scuba diving which we found rather expensive and 2 in the group didnt know how to swim. Thus we were done early and had to wait for lunch as lunch was included in the package.
So girls as girls started snapping while walking down a row of run down shops trying to get at least something pretty back. But nothing to buy, so we did manicure while the guys did temporary tattoos to kill time.
My manicure super ugly and the rest didnt like theirs too. Haha.
Finally, lunch was served and the food looked horrible.
It was supposed to be a seafood lunch yet what they meant by seafood is everyone to a prawn each and a fish.
The only thing that could be eaten was their minced pork fried with chilli and basil leaves.
Anyway no one dared to eat much thinking of the ride back.
So a picture of me and mervyn,
and a group picture before we left the island.
Byebye coral island.
After showering in the hotel, we ordered room service and concussed on the bed.
It was sure tiring to be out in the sun.
We kept delaying the timings we were supposed to meet the tour guide at the hotel lobby,
and finally when we met him, we went for dinner and a short trip to the supermarket.
Getting drinks and snacks as ahbui suggested a mini party in one of the rooms.
And as soon as we were back at the hotel, ahbui fell asleep all the way to the next morning.
Thus the remaining food and drinks were brought to Grand Diamond Hotel,
the hotel we were staying at in Bangkok.
July 09, 2009 @ Happy birthday Stephiee !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHIEE !
First flight to Bangkok at 630am,
followed by a 2hour ride to Pattaya.
I was ignoring all the birthday wishes by sms,
as i excitedly tried to sleep.
Just as i was 30-45mins into sleep, my phone r
ang.
And never did i think it would be you that called.
It has been long, at least to me, that we havent seen nor talked to each other.
And yes i have been trying hard not to think of you,
although you more den occasionally pop up in my mind.
It was nice hearing you speak, what you were doing at that point of time, your thoughts,
and that conversation left me in tears.
That familiar voice kept ranging in my mind aftermath,
but i know this would be the very last time i hear from you ever again.
Goodbye.
June 29, 2009 @ My life as it is.
I love sundays, especially last sunday when i got to meetup with the girls at my place.
My mum was great ! She cooked laksa base & we talked over steamboat,
laksa steamboat to be exact.
I was home late, as usual & had to eat alone.
Nonetheless, janice accompanied me at the table while munching on a green apple whilst the rest were either in the rooms or watching tv.
There was sarah, sandra, janice, cindy, darling, ber, charles & jefferson.
A pity i dont have the photos with me yet !
Life is very interesting, if you make mistakes.
It is simple, its just not easy.
My life as it seem may be hassle free from the daily workload, the family, love & what not.
But in fact, when reality kicks in, I am nothing.
I have a wound on my right knee because i fell right before i managed to walk pass the barrier of st james. How embarrassing & it hurts like till now... painful ! Urghhh.
June 23, 2009 @ Random
